Bookish Thoughts: Why I’m not reading…

…or doing anything really.  Depression.  Pure and simple I’m stuck in a bout of depression.  I thought I wasn’t reading because I was too busy.  Work in the garden, work on the house, work at the library. Then I thought I wasn’t reading because I needed new glasses with bifocal lenses.  Still, need those but I don’t think that is the reason anymore.  I find myself not interested in much of anything right now.  Could be due to changes in my life from my cancer diagnosis, hysterectomy, and now dealing with menopause, a major life crisis, and hormonal shift can do a number on someone’s attitude.  Then there is the 30 year anniversary of my mother’s death, get over it already… A couple other issues that I’m going to keep private.  The reason doesn’t really matter though the results are the same I am stuck in a dark place right now and I’ve lost interest in pretty much everything.  I’m still getting some things accomplished with the garden and animals but if something’s life doesn’t depend on me rallying enough energy to do what needs to be done the task just isn’t happening.  I am going to make an effort to stick to my commitments to read the review books I’ve been granted access to but other than that I just can’t’ make any promises right now.  I hope I come out of this funk soon but if I don’t I will be seeking out professional help through counseling.  I’ve done it before and it helped.  So thank you for understanding and don’t give up on the blog yet.  I plan to stick around through the ups and downs of my personal life.  Posting just might become more sporadic.  I do hope to finish up an audiobook soon and a review book that came out last Friday, I feel so bad that I didn’t finish it before the release date…

Thanks for listening, happy reading~ Amy

It’s not you, it’s me…

…okay maybe it’s you.  Signs I’m just not that into the book I’m reading.

  • I start looking for chores to do instead of reading; the dishes, cleaning the bathroom, moving firewood, rearranging cupboards, say does the dinning room need to be painted.
  • I struggle to read even 50 pages a day, my normal average is 100-200 pages.
  • My mind wanders while I’m reading.  I start thinking about those chores that need to be done, conversations from earlier in the day, week, last year.
  • I start skimming.
  • I reread the same sentences over and over again, because I wasn’t paying attention the first time I read them.
  • I don’t picture anything in my head.  When I read the words disappear and it is like a movie playing in my head.
  • I start hanging out online way too much.  My Pinterest boards start having a bunch of new pins.

Right now I’m almost done with a book I’m struggling with.  Some of it is the shinny new blog distraction, but some of it is the book just isn’t catching me.   So why am I continuing to struggle with it?  Well I have the next two in the series, and it really isn’t awful just not going anywhere.  I also paid for this book and one of the next ones in the series.  NOT a lot, picked them up at a library book sale, but still I brought them home, paid money for them I should read them.  Well it probably is because I’m just waiting for it to get better, there are like 10 books in the series.  Surely there wouldn’t be so many if it wasn’t popular and some people enjoyed it.  Hope to finish up today and then I’ll let you know more in the review.

What do you do when you don’t like or can’t get into the book you’re reading?  Give up? Stick it out?